I've never had, nor did I want, the big wedding. I wanted the life afterwards. And yes we have had our ups and downs. And yes a lot of that was me but not just me being hateful or mean. I have lived through things that others can't imagine. In my life it was a "leave them before they leave you" or "hurt them before they hurt you" kind of situation. Luckily my husband understands that and he stood by even when I was pushing him away. He is and always will be the only person who I need to explain myself to for my past choices. That's not meant to sound like I'm feeling like that again or that I'm angry with anyone. I just saw this post and that is what came to mind. We work together for our family and to make things work out the way we see fit. I love my husband more than anything in this world. formal party garments for teen girls